Life changes so much. It’s seemed to be on overdrive for me since May or June of last year. I try to remember that change is good. A friend used to always throw change on the floor in my dining room and declare “there’s always room for change”. In the last decade I’ve really found myself facing lots of life defining changes. Changes occurring intentionally as I set about shifting my days, life and routines with great purpose and changes I’ve had no control over. Changes I maybe didn’t want but they rippled from changes I did want for myself. Since last May or June the changes internally have been on overdrive…in so many ways, not the least of which is the physical changes as I approach 50 years old.
When I was young change scared me. I’ve always been big with routines and schedules… even still there are so many ways I resist change in my life, things like not wanting to shift my ‘planned’ day around for the unexpected… changing something I’ve considered set in motion will still trigger anxiety in me. But change like moving furniture around and rearranging our spaces has always been something I love to do and have no resistance to.
There has been no shortage of experience with change in my life…from being adopted and immediately facing that change. (Birth is already a monumental change in a beings life but then not being with the same energy, person, voices etc… imagine the adjustment and uncertainty even for an infant.) thru all the usual changes people live thru…relationships, divorce, growth, moving locations and jobs…not to mention the physical way the body changes as we grow…change is inevitable and it is the only thing certain in this life… it’s going to change.
This past year the changes have surprised me. I’ve made decisions for myself and stood up for myself in ways that changed my life. I’ve seen myself and my goals change before my very eyes as I became truly aware of me… myself… who I am, what I want for my life. Everything changed when I decided to see myself completely with no expectations. Some changes are wonderful and some changes aren’t but all is well. My work with the Law of Attraction has changed so much of my thinking.
I like so much of the changes and still many feel like losses. A small one of those losses is my mornings at the sunrise. I used to live less than 5 minutes from the beach… I would wake up in the morning and see the colors of the sky and jump in my car and go to the sunrise every morning. The bigger reason was that I was trying to not be home in the morning when my then husband would get up (seperate rooms) and leave for work… we only irritated each other and so it made both our days much more pleasant if we didn’t see each other… boy has that changed too but that’s another story for another day.
For over 6 years I went to the sunrise almost every day. I have thousands and thousands of sunrise pictures from the very same spot each day (see how I resist change)… a spot my Gram and Gramp used to take me. This was my most sacred moments of the day. The energy of the sun, or clouds against the sea…the birds and the sounds of nature surrounding me… These were my most favorite moments of the day. I loved it and thought it’d never stop yet I have been to the sunrise barely a dozen times in the last year or 2. Things change. Even though I loved every sunrise and felt so much joy in that routine and never wanted it to stop it still faded from my life as it changed…as I changed.
I moved so that it’s now a 15 minute drive to that beach… I got a new husband who sleeps in the same bed with me and whose arms I don’t want to pull myself from in the mornings. Or if he’s gone to work already I am so in love with our home and my space now that I don’t want to go anywhere. I have sacred space all around me and enjoy the sun rising in my own backyard. Things change and I’m okay with it. Even the changes that meant I ‘lost’ something or someone only created opportunity for me to appreciate different circumstances… see see more and love more.
Without change growth cannot occur. Without change everything stays the same. Change is the catalyst to making all your dreams become a reality so why resist? Begin to allow the changes to flow thru and around you with ease, no matter how small and when the big changes sweep you away hold on to the knowledge that with change all your dreams can become manifested.
Good Morning Sunshine…
I am grateful your light is with me wherever I go…